Start This Record Over

Perhaps is a new and sudden way of being.
 
Like satisfaction not yet begun or some other kind
of kindness:
 
a more gentle one?
 
Night makes us all into the middle
of something until we aren't
 
anything anymore. The sky
isn't any color here. It's OK
because consolation is color enough
 
for your cheeks, wind bitten and glorified
by the light of the wine in this glass draining
 
toward a better time, a better space. I invented
a notion of hell, and you invented a notion of hello.
 
Amazing similarities and bizarrely coincidental snow
 
Like a twig falling from an oak's tallest point,
 
I keep wondering when forgiveness
found its way into this world
 
in a time before bargaining and beckoning.
 
It's quiet again and now the sky is a tangled
mess of rags seeking out the bored and unwilling.
 
I'd like to make a map not of the land
but of the path I took to arrive in this place,
 
a map with no idealized purpose,
a map of a thousand airless pines.

Copyright Credit: Adam Clay, "Start This Record Over" from Stranger.  Copyright © 2016 by Adam Clay.  Reprinted by permission of Milkweed Editions.