Unshuttered ["8. cane, cravats, and corsets tell..."]

cane, cravats, and corsets tell   and retell  the body’s story  the shell  we
shroud in  guile, romance, and thread  i was a doll  i was a sleek fool  i
was publicly foppish  loud as a lit lamp  but  my shoes, their upturned toes

dust and scuff  a negro’s always got nigger somewhere on ’ im all  you gots to
do is

Look

They couldn’t let me occur   not like  this  not
this me  not my Sunday self  not  not  like upright  not like stroll  like
matchstick  Like la-di-fuckin’-da  boy  gotta find a crime  for you
their rhythm partial to the red air  down around my knees
she/point//shriek//point//shriek/she/ the point is  i was where i was  when i
   was there
it’s true my eyes  may have swept  a woman  an hour  idea  or  a

future
        i didn’t own  she/point/she  who knew  that
 there that boy is that the boy yessir that the boy  could be a whole  trial
sometimes even christians  get necks wrong  i was not that boy

i  used to twirl a  walking stick  and dip  my crown toward a sun  that
relished
my body

but
when we forget     that fancy only rolls
    one way

   some    body
         reminds

              us

Copyright Credit: Patricia Smith, "8: cane, cravats, and corsets tell..." from Unshuttered. Copyright © 2023 by Patricia Smith. Reprinted by permission of TriQuarterly Books / Northwestern University Press. All rights reserved.
Source: Unshuttered (TriQuarterly Books / Northwestern University Press, 2023)