Stetson in Retrograde
As a matter of law, the house is haunted.
–Stambovsky v. Ackley, 1991
1.
If a house is haunted like a radio
is haunted If a body is a radio
of blood If a body of ghosts
hums like blood over a valley of
bone If blood is a government
of ghosts If bones grow green
as cash in the foreign national of
our ghosts If homes bloom
along the interstate of our blood
If from granaries of bone we rise
in the newspapered dawn If
amongst the chattering of water
we rise like a benediction over the
auspices of convenience If
ghosts we rise like ghosts If
we collect we collect like desire in
a desert payphone If we ring
If we ring like coins in the cup of
night If we lie like coins in the
palm of Nebraska If the sun
is an argument with ghosts If
the sun’s argument plays out in
squares upon the floor of this
home If the day winds down
like a watch If heaven is a
horology If desire is the body
we give the past If at night
termites tick like time in our bones
If in these bones we find the
body’s foreclosure
2.
If in foreclosure we find the math
of our homes If the math of
our homes is the math of fire
If the math of fire is the math of
money If the math of money
is a map of interstate rain If
grief is a cup If grief is a cup
let me drink from it and be drunk
If drunk If drunk and
wandering If thirsty and
moneyed If coined and
fashionable If drunk and
wandering like a dog through the
supermarkets of the night If
I want the question of a home
If I want as a windmill wants the
wind If I want that lesson
If I want the lesson that breaks me
If I want the desert and its wind
If I want to throw myself to it
If I want never to be seen again
If by the light of dentistry my teeth
anoint ledgers lavish with loss
If in these ledgers every tooth is a
house If debt is a tooth the
dentist will not pull
3.
If awake If waking If
awake in the wake of sleep If
sore-eyed and stubbled If
poorly fed yet fee’d If
coffee’d and quiet If humming
If awake and humming in the halls
of convenience If aching
under the auspice of birds whose
voices are feathered and vaulted
and keyed If of our voices we
build a bank will it not speak
If we atone If we and our
homes atone If we sink alone
into the chloroform fiduciary of
home If we pill and drone
If we alone are alone If we
tether ourselves to the stones
of our homes If we sink to
lazier bones If we believe
bankruptcy is a throne If along
the rails the whistle no longer
blows
4.
If we choose If we had chosen
If we better If we If
we had been If we had been
better and awake If we had
accounted If we had awakened
from the tax of sleep to the muted
bells of bills that rang like fire in
the foundries of past lovers If
love If lovers and we sleep
If like fire we bill the forest for
overages If for a surcharge we
survive the past If of the past
If of the past we make a ministry
of the past If we pass like fire
over the waters of ambition If
upon those waters we find our
faces and weep If weeping
stops If stopping stops If
the ghost-math of money stops
If named If a name is cast
like a coin over the auspices of
convenience If I call a name
will that name call back
If I call will I call collect If I
collect like credit If I credit a
ghost
5.
If named for a ghost If in the
name of all ghosts If the name
is named that calls all ghosts to
waking If waking ghosts
If ghosts rise like desire from the
granaries of sleep and dress for the
newspapered dawn If
newspapered and awake If
hunted by convenience stores
If alone and named If
nameless and unknown If
anonymous as light If mute
as tax If a dividend of sun sits
like a loan upon the floor of this
home If silence is a loan If
the sun is a school If ghosts
are a lesson drawn in sand If
the sun looms like a school of
blood over subdivisions of ghosts
If subdivided If the desert like
a house of belief is a body
dividended with blood
6.
If belief is a ghost If blood is
weather If bones are birds in
a body of fog If debt is a body
clothed with birds If the body
is a myth in the municipal pool
If birds gather like fists of cash on
federal clotheslines If ghosts
tremble on foreign buildings like
cups of fog If cash is the myth
in the myth of collection If
myth is a lesson in collective loss
If we are learned and lean If
we are lessened by learning If
learning is a lean-to to loss If
a ghost is a home If a ghost
is a thing bankrupt of bone If
land is land only if it is lessoned in
homes If we like land grow
green with the memory of our
blood If we grow and with
land If we be If land is
If we be and with land never let us
be without If never without
us our ghosts
Copyright Credit: Adam O. Davis, "Stetson in Retrograde" from Index of Haunted Houses. Copyright © 2019 by Adam O. Davis. Reprinted by permission of Sarabande Books, Inc..
Source: Index of Haunted Houses (Sarabande Books, Inc., 2019)