Our Willie

’T was merry Christmas when he came,

Our little boy beneath the sod;

And brighter burned the Christmas flame,

And merrier sped the Christmas game,

Because within the house there lay   

A shape as tiny as a fay—

      The Christmas gift of God!

In wreaths and garlands on the walls   

The holly hung its ruby balls,

      The mistletoe its pearls;

And a Christmas tree’s fantastic fruits   

Woke laughter like a choir of flutes

      From happy boys and girls.

For the mirth, which else had swelled as shrill   

As a school let loose to its errant will,

      Was softened by the thought,   

That in a dim hushed room above   

A mother’s pains in a mother’s love

      Were only just forgot.

The jest, the tale, the toast, the glee,

All took a sober tone;

We spoke of the babe upstairs, as we   

Held festival for him alone.

When the bells rang in the Christmas morn,   

It scarcely seemed a sin to say

That they rang because that babe was born,   

Not less than for the sacred day.

Ah! Christ forgive us for the crime

Which drowned the memories of the time   

      In a merely mortal bliss!

We owned the error when the mirth

Of another Christmas lit the hearth

      Of every home but this.

When, in that lonely burial-ground,

With every Christmas sight and sound   

Removed or shunned, we kept

A mournful Christmas by the mound   

Where little Willie slept!

Ah, hapless mother! darling wife!   

I might say nothing more,

And the dull cold world would hold   

The story of that precious life

      As amply told!

Shall we, shall you and I, before   

That world’s unsympathetic eyes   

Lay other relics from our store

      Of tender memories?

What could it know of the joy and love   

That throbbed and smiled and wept above

      An unresponsive thing?

And who could share the ecstatic thrill   

With which we watched the upturned bill   

Of our bird at its living spring?   

Shall we tell how in the time gone by,   

Beneath all changes of the sky,   

And in an ordinary home

      Amid the city’s din,

Life was to us a crystal dome,   

      Our babe the flame therein?   

Ah! this were jargon on the mart;

And though some gentle friend,

And many and many a suffering heart,   

Would weep and comprehend,   

Yet even these might fail to see   

What we saw daily in the child—

Not the mere creature undefiled,   

But the winged cherub soon to be.

That wandering hand which seemed to reach

      At angel finger-tips,

And that murmur like a mystic speech   

      Upon the rosy lips,

That something in the serious face   

Holier than even its infant grace,   

And that rapt gaze on empty space,   

Which made us, half believing, say,   

“Ah, little wide-eyed seer! who knows   

But that for you this chamber glows   

With stately shapes and solemn shows?”   

Which touched us, too, with vague alarms,   

Lest in the circle of our arms   

We held a being less akin

To his parents in a world of sin   

Than to beings not of clay:

How could we speak in human phrase,   

Of such scarce earthly traits and ways,   

      What would not seem

      A doting dream,

In the creed of these sordid days?   

      No! let us keep

      Deep, deep,

In sorrowing heart and aching brain,   

This story hidden with the pain,   

Which since that blue October night   

When Willie vanished from our sight,   

Must haunt us even in our sleep.

In the gloom of the chamber where he died,   

And by that grave which, through our care,   

From Yule to Yule of every year,   

Is made like spring to bloom;

And where, at times, we catch the sigh

As of an angel floating nigh,

Who longs but has not power to tell

That in that violet-shrouded cell

Lies nothing better than the shell

Which he had cast aside—

By that sweet grave, in that dark room,   

We may weave at will for each other’s ear,

Of that life, and that love, and that early doom,   

The tale which is shadowed here:

To us alone it will always be

As fresh as our own misery;

But enough, alas! for the world is said,

In the brief “Here lieth” of the dead!