Afterlife

I wake to leafless vines and muddy fields,

patches of standing water. His pocketknife

waits in my dresser drawer, still able to gut fish.

I pick up his green shirt, put it on for the fourth day

in a row. Outside, the rusty nail he hammered

catches me, leaves its stain on everything.

The temperature drops, the whole shore

filling with him: his dented chew can, waders,

the cattails kinked, bowing their distress.

At the pier, I use his old pliers to ready the line:

fatheads, darters, a blood worm jig. Today, the lake’s

one truth is hardness. When the trout bite,

I pull the serviceable things glistening into air.