Am I Special

I can play songs in my head

Yes I can perfectly replicate

(the) full-on

orchestral

every note

(when the lights / do down / in the city)

yet I cannot

compose, for example

and though when I was young I believed

that the fullness meant

I could recreate the sounds

I heard in my head with my mouth

I learned through painful iteration

painfully unsatisfactory

shameful the rendition

so partial

almost unrelated

the qualities are: note tone scale register vocality musicality

incapacity

painfully shy of representation

is there anyone?

who is a record player

Source: One Morning— (Wave Books, 2015)