I stand at the front of the room and speak
At the front of the room I look out at the faces
The light is fluorescent, the faces are lit
The windows in the back of the room are dark
My mouth makes sounds like “ughh” and “thh” and “and”
My tongue shapes to the inside of my mouth and I am aware of it
At the front of the room I’m taller
I stand while others are seated
They look at me while I open my mouth, expectant, as if I will show them something
They ask a question:
The darkness comes in from outside
It seeps though the crack in the door
They ask a question
What it is about:
Behind me the white board feels uncertain, I can cover or uncover
Mosiac, I spell, “mosaic,” they say
I do not erase and replace
My mouth gets hot and makes a sound like “mo,” like “say,” like “this is where you might
second-guess yourself”
We all can hear metal being wiped in the restroom beyond the wall
We all know the cart outside waits for us to finish
They turn to the page or turn to the screen and write
I stand and write and I am aware of looking them over
My tongue folds to the edge of my mouth
Source: Poetry (November 2019)