Donuts in Kid-Jail
Here is how often you see donuts in kid-jail: never. Zero
times. Like seeing a cat or a dog, a cell phone. A white
kid, a comfy chair. Just me and this one kid, same kid
who wrote Monkey Rescue first time we worked together.
He saved Junior from a fire, then they got high by the pool.
I drew hearts and stars in the margins, helped spell “monkey,”
wrote great job! They gave this kid two donuts, a small
carton of milk, and we wrote imitations of “One Art,” me
with no breakfast yet. My stomach growled. The kid
looked up, both of us remembering I have a body. That
everybody gets hungry, whether or not they are free.
This cracked us up, and he offered me a donut. So I said
You are a sweetheart and I am never going to eat your donut.
Which made no sense to him. Dude, I have a car and money—
I can walk out of here and buy a dozen as soon as you finish
this poem. So he kept working. An empty classroom, “One Art,”
sharp pencil, still room. What are some things you have lost?
Mother, Father, Sister. Grandmother, school, ring. Country.
Bracelet. My stomach kept growling, we kept laughing, he
kept offering me a donut. Donut as distraction. Donut:
a gift. Finally he said Look, I’m going to go pee. Then you
can eat the donut with no one watching. Donut as test!
He left, and I said to the guard, Hey I’m going to eat
that kid’s donuts real quick-like while he’s gone. And the guard
was horrified, said he’d give me five bucks to not touch
the kid’s donuts, explained donuts are hard to come by
in juvie, blah blah blah blah donuts. While I’m like i was just
kidding! i would never mess with the precious
donuts! Kid came back, and we finished his draft, which
he asked me to keep till next time. And I drove away, past
Forest Hills and new condo construction, Blissful Monkey
yoga studio, Whole Foods. Parked my car and walked into my
house, where no one hurts me, where I eat whatever I want.
Source: Poetry (February 2021)