my grandfather and home
i
my grandfather used to count the days for return with his fingers
he then used stones to count
not enough
he used the clouds birds people
absence turned out to be too long
thirty six years until he died
for us now it is over seventy years
my grandpa lost his memory
he forgot the numbers the people
he forgot home
ii
i wish i were with you grandpa
i would have taught myself to write you
poems volumes of them and paint our home for you
i would have sewn you from soil
a garment decorated with plants
and trees you had grown
i would have made you
perfume from the oranges
and soap from the skys tears of joy
couldnt think of something purer
iii
i go to the cemetery every day
i look for your grave but in vain
are they sure they buried you
or did you turn into a tree
or perhaps you flew with a bird to the nowhere
iv
i place your photo in an earthenware pot
i water it every monday and thursday at sunset
i was told you used to fast those days
in ramadan i water it every day
for thirty days
or less or more
v
how big do you want our home to be
i can continue to write poems until you are satisfied
if you wish i can annex a neighboring planet or two
vi
for this home i shall not draw boundaries
no punctuation marks
Source: Poetry (March 2021)