From “sky doc”

Once upon a time when suicide was grinding its hoofs to nails

                               to what extent are we the same

                               as our thoughts a theme park of my loudest

                               explosions as a kid I would wake up

                               convinced I had burned the house down

                               my mum bringing me back to earth

                               with a pebble on my cheek my dad

                               offering Starbursts could be so gentle

 

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Once upon a time when suicide was a GP who told me

                               I was just overthinking everything

                               it’s funny how much damage

                               people are capable of the person

                               capable of the most damage                             

                               never said a thing like that to me

                               perhaps my dad most of all

                               understood where we came from

 

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Once upon a time when suicide was a rational phobia

                               of nature trails and trying to explain

                               to uni friends that a tent can be a body

                               in the right light sometimes my dad

                               would fight other dads in the street

                               one holiday in Rome for example                              

                               by the time they were finished

                               neither dad had any shoes on

 

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Once upon a time when suicide was the realisation

                               that being scared is caused mostly

                               by thinking on the topic of thought

                               keeping close to the walls suicide

                               assures me it has the perfect analogy                             

                               imagine your sister’s body snorkelling

                               outside of its life now keep imagining

                               whatever you do don’t forget