Touched
When I feel moved and then say I am touched,
it’s another presence inside me I sense,
the dip of an oar, a canoe being launched.
I’m the oar, but I’m the water, and sense
at once initiation and response.
After you died, I felt you next to me,
and over months you entered gradually
into that lake and disappeared. Not gone,
but so internalized you’re not next to me.
You’re not the port, or the support; you’re done
being you, and my loneliness is so extreme
that I feel moved by almost anything,
even the forehead of a dog that leans
against my knee in an elevator, things
as brief as all the ways you would lean
against me getting a glass of water
at the sink. Everything touches me,
now that I’m not touched, but moved.
Source: Poetry (October 2024)