Communion

After the stroke our father lost the word
                                                            light switch
                                                            asked me to
          press the wall so a world       could                 open

He couldn’t go to mass so Jesus       visited       soothed
                   his gums con el dedo corazón dipped
                                        in red wine

                                                            It was not      transubstantiation
Did Jesus believe all that anyway?

                   We rolled a hospital bed
                                                            into the room
                                                            where he once
          composed church songs                                          in Spanish
                   talked of Easter eggs            at                          City of Rocks

Who carved them? All those nichos?

          Said he rode a jackrabbit              said

I know you think it’s impossible but
                                                       I had a       tiny       saddle

          Saturdays Mother left him
                                                                                  in our care

          He lost the words       communion
                                                            santo
                                                                      pecado
                                                                                       lamb      He lost
                   a grandson’s name
                                                            remembered the daughter
                                                            he       never    claimed
                   asked      why       she wasn’t
                                                            at                     breakfast

He made us
                                            lock    the door                        keep out
                   the naked woman         who              snuck

                             into his bedroom at night

He soiled himself as Mother turned
                                                                                       her key in the door
 

Notes:

This poem is part of the portfolio “The Chorus These Poets Create: Twenty Years of Letras Latinas.” You can read the rest of the portfolio in the December 2024 issue.

Source: Poetry (December 2024)