Poem to Retweet upon News of My Death
I kept the six of spades tacked to my corkboard
and when I had a bad day, I imagined some
exhortation beside it: pleasure first, or
you don’t have to, and in the pinning
I could give up the thought. If pressed, I’d say it was
my way of controlling this whole operation.
Once I learned I could have the last word
I couldn’t stop having it. Something scrawled out
on a notecard, collectible; something kind or
something contemptible. It was never in the novels
because the narrative demands did me in—
I always wanted to marry everyone off. (It meant
a lot of sequels.) When my doctor said you should have
come in sooner, applying the analgesic, I thought instead
about the Illinois State Fair. French fries by
the hotel pool, my new husband’s jazz funk band.
A forest inside of a glass. Her blanket stitch. A roll
of butcher paper that I sacrificed by inches.
Source: Poetry (April 2025)