I Had a Pet Rabbit
i say child but what i mean is now
still preferring the moss lawn to the
“superior” grass lawn my parents
broke their backs over seeding
in the backyard with bad tempers
i regret decisions i weep
for days come see me
pen a wee poem about the yank
of the setting sun on my heart
and how
it breaks time and moulds it into
coils like a permanent i drive to the end
of gluttony each day lie
on a wide alabaster rock happy
but still full of doubt i know
that i won’t be shown everything
by joni mitchell and neither will she
by me or anyone else and this is how
to overcome loneliness not to sleep
means you are inaugurated into poetry
which is a type of nightwatchmanhood
according to my bedmate
one night i answered him promptly
both loud and soft keep your feet off the lawn
or bury it quickly and i must have been dreaming
of the tender grass seeds, or of my parents
or of the rabbit my friend’s cat killed
in her very kitchen
a baby rabbit who’d spent its young life eating colours
careful careful careful
and still its loosed eye
had rolled right to the other side of the room
Source: Poetry (April 2025)