Caro Nome
By Kathy Fagan
Jets shake the air and snow
breaks off a tree branch in little puffs. One
cardinal. Cars moving slowly downhill on the ice.
It is always someone’s last day.
Dearest Bird, she read from the card she’d found unattached to the flowers,
Happy Day To Our Sweetest Hart. Love Monster And Beef Dad.
Their secret language.
Manischewitz, she calls me for the sweetness.
Manitoba, for the expanse.
Deer rest in snow,
charcoal muzzle to charcoal hoof, heads slung over
their shoulders like swans.
One is in REM. Look at it dreaming, she said.
Fern buttons unwheel in a dark place behind the snow,
a contrast she loves in me.
The sledding hill is closed, the days like an unused billboard,
but sunsets have been fantastic,
jewel-toned as the flowers unattached to the card, or hot like the cardinal
who pins the whole picture up
with your eye. Meanwhile,
her tree is an iron room with the moon inside. Its branches
have a mental disorder so sunsets keep dodging them.
I am the color of that tree
she loves and nearly as still. And my blood, which is not in this picture,
will soon cool, sunset winking out in my eyes and her eyes
welling in a language that once fell and rose
in drifts then melted, starry, she said, starry, into my warm coat.
Source: Poetry (January 2015)