Skirting

I don't want my legs to show
 
I don't    want
 
my legs    to show
that
 
I'm willing
instead
 
I ripped my skirt off
 
 
the first story     (in which I am featured)
 
 
 
 
my mother having forgotten
the wooden clothespins which were my
usual toys     not having them to gum
& grip     instead I ripped my skirt off
 

say    I'm willing
more than    so
 
I'm too    willing
so say so
 
more than say
so much    than
 
I'm willing to    say
 
 
I don't want my legs to show    but my
breasts are available      not motion but
gravity     the steadfast pounding
 
not motion    not pavement
 
the pounding
 
 


the skirt is the uniform    grey &
sullen     in school    refusing to
 
hold a pleat     wet wool on iron
steaming     flung
 
after lying
 
in snow
thighs red & icy
 
 
sitting for yearbook pictures
smart girls    honor    society
 
our white
 
panties showing
every one




if I show you my legs
 
won’t you
see
that
 
I’m leaving
all life is
 
a leaning
 
 
slow dancing      eyes closed
arms raised around his neck
 
each girl     a view
for some other girl’s partner

 
 

they are not the feature    the breasts
hide the heart or disclose it    the legs
hide the opening
 
the skirt hides the legs
 
disguise
enclosure
in clothes
 
my mother couldn't understand why
I wouldn't wear a slip when standing
in the light the outline of my legs
 
shone
 

the skirt matters    although it is see-
through
 
 

 
fear is a by-product
do not be dissuaded
 
this made more sense than that
division into love & fear
 
I began to see fear
 
as a curtain    a scrim
substantive as light
 
evasive & theatrical
but light     as a curtain
it need not be skirted
 
a skirt may be
ripped    shredded
 
or moved easily aside
it need not be violated
 
it can be adjusted

Copyright Credit: Dale Going, "Skirting" from The View They Arrange.  Copyright © 1994 by Dale Going.  Reprinted by permission of Kelsey St. Press.
Source: The View They Arrange (Kelsey St. Press, 1994)