Blades of Grace
By Carlina Duan
I wake up each morning desperate for another body. instead, the house cools
with blue windows. my lone carpet, my humidifier. what I’d give to touch
another spine, a hand, to sing into a temple. there is a cap on the world now,
so I unscrew a jar of peanut butter & dip a spoon back into my mouth. touch
and go. taste and swallow. sweet blades of grace. I mean grass. what are words
but soft patterns, routine? I swing my legs beyond the bed. I read: torch, tooth, touch.
crouch, crawl, crater. cranium, crash, cracker. I twist my mouth into shapes and perform
consonants and vowels, my voice creaky & loud for nobody. just daylight, a touchstone
way of measuring time. the sky softens me with yellow. the sky softens, & I am soft.
soothed. every day, I go beyond the bed only to make more typos. grace, grass. touch,
torch. I brush the jade plant with the back of my hand. I flash my teeth into an open
mirror. tired, desire stares back. outside, the world swells with rain, emptied of human touch.
Source: Poetry (October 2021)