Dearest

a child, I knew: children love children.
children devour children.

even the cruelest were beloveds.
when fathers fled,

we used a soviet waffle iron,
with a wire like a frayed rat tail,

to feed small friends.
when shame was cast to us,

it birthed a death wish,
our first encounter with towards-dying:

to feed was a rule, to fry leftover buckwheat,
to play mother, savior, saint.

even then, I loved the half-light of magpies.
I saw the need of birds,

the dream of birds: at night,
to silence my father, I closed my eyes,

and the feathers in my bedding began to sing.

Source: Poetry (November 2024)