Dearest
By Triin Paja
a child, I knew: children love children.
children devour children.
even the cruelest were beloveds.
when fathers fled,
we used a soviet waffle iron,
with a wire like a frayed rat tail,
to feed small friends.
when shame was cast to us,
it birthed a death wish,
our first encounter with towards-dying:
to feed was a rule, to fry leftover buckwheat,
to play mother, savior, saint.
even then, I loved the half-light of magpies.
I saw the need of birds,
the dream of birds: at night,
to silence my father, I closed my eyes,
and the feathers in my bedding began to sing.
Source: Poetry (November 2024)